Where... Is... My heart?

A lot of people, fictional and non-fictional, have influenced me greatly these past 18 years. But if people were to ask me "So, who has influenced you the most?", I would have to say...

Ulquiorra Schiffer of Bleach.
(Read more bout him HERE)

He is a very firm believer of materialism. At first, I thought he's just some emo kid. But you know, lying down on bed for 3 hours+ before eventually dozing off tends to make you think of many stuff.

And I finally understood what he's trying to say.


"What my eyes do not see, does not exist."~ Ulquiorra

Basically people who believe in materialism believes that what he/she can't see, does not exist.

"What is this "heart" you people always talk about? Where is it? If I tear open your chest, is your beating heart considered the "heart"? If I crack open your skull, will I see it there?"

I've thought long... And hard... And only 1-2 nights ago, I've come to a conclusion.

HOLY SHIT HE'S RIGHT!

The "heart" does not exist.

So, people who have been trying to understand how the heart feels, fear no more! For it does not exist.

Yes, people will start complaining and say "What bout feelings? Happiness, sorrow?" and yes, they do exist! People express emotions. They express their feelings. And people can see their expressions. Therefore, they exist.

And yes, physicists are trying to prove the existance of the Higgs Boson using the LHC. So, I'll leave that to Science.

But how do you see the "heart"? How do you show your "heart" to others? You can't. But don't worry =) No one can.

I will miss you.

When I first saw you, all that was going through my head then was "You are the most beautiful creation of God."

After which, I got to know you more. I got to know almost everything about you. We started interacting with one another. We started seeing each other everyday, every time of my life.

You were with me when I was happy. You were there to cheer me up when I'm depressed. You're always around when I need you.

Everyday, I sleep hoping to see you in my dreams. And whenever I'm awake, I'll always be looking forward to seeing you. There never was a time when I'm not thinking about you.

You gave me a reason to live. I felt like I'm invincible everytime when I'm with you. I felt like searching for a strand of hay in a needlestack is possible. And I felt that I could take on Chuck Norris and live.

I've never felt such... feelings anywhere else.

Feelings for you.


But now, those feelings have waned in time. I no longer feel the joy when I see you. You tried cheering me up everytime, but I just... Don't feel it anymore.

I'm sorry. I am so sorry. But something else has caught my eye. And that has swept my heart away. If you really will feel happy if I'm happy, then...

I think it's time we stop seeing each other.

Even as I tear while typing this, I know you will never forgive me. You never can.


I'm sorry, World of Warcraft. You will always be in my heart.

But my heart belongs to Final Fantasy XIII now...

Naruto poisons the mind

Yes. For those of you who've read the latest chapter of Naruto, you get what I'm saying. For those who don't follow the series, I'm going to explain a bit bout Naruto in the next paragraph.

Naruto is this teenage kid who believes that he can have the best of everything. He believes that he can save the world by converting one of the main villian back to a good guy, and to also get a girlfriend along the way.



This does not happen in real life.

It is just not possible to get everything you want in real life. You have to sacrifice something to get something else.

But Naruto keeps getting what he wants, keeps winning, keeps changing people's hearts. It makes kids believe that they can do something great without losing anything.

Stop it, Naruto. Stop giving people false hope. People might actually believe it.


P.S: Then again, maybe cuz if Naruto dies, EVERYONE in the ninja world will most proly suffer from depression and start commiting suicide.

Heroes of Newerth!

Yes. HoN has not been patching for weeks. However, they have been giving sneak peeks of new heros, (or heroes ported over from DotA). For example,

 

I SWEAR this is going to be the new Nerubian Assassin (NA). Prettier than some beetle, IMO. Also, Pyromancer (Lina in DotA) might be getting a new facelift!From

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Look! There's a trend, see. Apparently, players prefer characters with VERY LITTLE or NO ARMOR at all. I mean, wtf? There're going to be in a battlefield, and they'll most probably be running around with skimpy clothing.

And yes, I'm totally ignoring the fact that they're women.

Blog! Again!

After so many... Months of not blogging, I have decided to blog again!

But this time, I'm angry. I just realised that ALMOST ALL of my friends treat me as a joke. Eh, just cuz I always joke around and play a fool, wheee~ like a kid and look retarded, doesn't mean that you can always treat me like some kid ok!

I am 19 (ok fine, 1 more month to 19)years old can?! Maybe next time I'll just give that ever-stern and serious look on my face. Then you guys can take me seriously.

I mean, wtf?! I am not a kid. I just act like one.

我会翻桌子的哦！ ;O

ok, I feel better now. =D



And yes. I am still thinking of a nice blog name...