Fuck the day count.

Ok so I've not been blogging as much...

At all, actually. LOL

Right ok... Well I'm back! Hopefully...

Soooo much has happened. But they're stuff which I'd not want to blog about. Too bleh.

Awright I think this blog'll just be a dumping ground for fragmented thoughts (I swear I've said something like this before...)

I should continue with my story on the Mancers... Relatively free-ier now.

Day 98

So long has passed. I read my blog posts, and am amazed at what I've done. I actually forgot that I translated almost the WHOLE of a 12-minute chinese song.

So much memories... But that's all they are. Blogs remind oneself of his/her past. Coupled to the fact that people usually blog when they're sad,

Not a good thing... Still,

Memories might be good, might be horrible. But that's all they are... Nothing else.

Day 17

Gonna work in expo today... And for the next 5 days...

Mixed feelings...

Rain's not helping...

Day 15

You can call this a surge of energy, or a feeling where you're spontaneously and instantaneously invigorated.

I'm feeling SO much better now... =)

Amazing how some statements can prove so powerful...

Day 13

Sian... Everytime I feel like saying something, by the time I get into blogger, all the thoughts gone...

Zzzzzz.... I'll get back her when it comes back.

Till then,

BAZINGA!

Day 12

Awright... I shall dump my thoughts which I usually dump onto Facebook, here. Some of my thoughts there are too... Personal anyway... I mean, talking bout sex in Facebook! HAHAHAHA! My aunt's so gonna tell my dad...

Day 10

Went back to TWSS today (ok fine, yesterday).

I miss everyone. Everything.

We were so naive then...

Sian... Forgot to ask Marcus along...

Never mind, going back to school again on Friday. x)

Day 7

Ooooh... Got back from an early morning k session... Dead tired...

Mmm... Headache is painful...

I can't sing karaoke well... =\

30 bucks... Ugh... Kbox's 8 bucks... Should go there next time...

Too many people... Can't concentrate on singing...

Also, I purchased Starcraft 2! WOOHOO! I'm a Protoss turtler =\ Just can't seem to do rushes...

Can't wait to play with friends x)

Day 3

FYP project presentation... I get this feeling that I'm not going to even get a B... Problem... But somehow I don't feel as horrible... Hmm sad... Imma hope for the best.

Went pooling with WJ, Sarah and Helen after that!

The silence in the room was stifling...

Couldn't concentrate for some reason. WJ did give a lot of advice... But dunno why just couldn't concentrate...

Got the urge to Kbox... I must go one day... Even if no one accompanies...

Must... Get myself... Blogging...

Awright! I must blog stuff so I won't forget what happened! Need to do this on an almost daily basis...

Need to stay happy and occupied...

AWRIGHT! I'M ALL PSYCHED UP! TIME TO BLOG!

Ok my thoughts are all fragmented... I hope people'll understand my posts from now on. Hahahaha!!!

I've been thinking... Again...

Up to now, there never was one movie all bout sorcery. I love sorcery to the point of obsession. The closest sorcerer I can think up of now is Storm from X-men. Her powers allow her to control nature. Of all the branches of sorcery, I ABSOLUTELY AM INTO elemental magics.

Fire. Ice. Lightning. Water. Earth. Air. Light. Darkness.

I'm bored. Shall compose a story called...

[Insert nice story name here]

Disclaimer: This story is entirely fictional. (Like duh.) Any characters in the story who resemble any person in real life, be it living or dead, is purely PURELY COINCIDENTAL.

Prologue

The lambent moon shone its light down upon Singapore, ever so calmly, under the star-dappled sky. Its brilliant beams landing atop every structure, giving them a faint, eerie yet soothing glow.

At the very summit(if you ever call that stubby thing a summit) of Mt.Faber, 2 figures dressed in robes as dark as night gazed longingly at the moon.

"The moon's really bright tonight." Whispered one of the figure.

"Yes. You seem to be interested in common astronomical phenomena." came the reply.

"You're such a wet blanket. At least play along with me la~ Say something like uhm "Oh ya! It really is!" or something."

"You know, sometimes I really wonder how in the world you--"

An arrow whizzed between the 2 figures, missing one of them by a hairsbreadth. Thousands followed immediately after.

"What the-- What's going on? Joseph."

"Mmm." The figure named Joseph raised his hand, palm facing the volley, and uttered a single word.

"Stop."

Without warning, the rain of death stopped midflight. "I don't think I can stop another volley, Keith."

"Nonsense~" came the reply. "You've got 2 hands! Hahahaha! Alright alright, I'm on it."

Eyes closed, Keith started to commune with the surrounding winds. He questioned their strength, dared them to show him how powerful they could become. The winds then started to increase in magnitude, forming dust devils and whipping up leaves and twigs. Shortly after, the gale intensified, causing a tornado to erupt. This in turn, scattered the arrows frozen in time. As the tornado died down, the two sorcerers scanned the area for any signs of their attackers, only to find nothing.

"I don't see anyone who would be daring enough to incur our wrath." Joseph announced.

"Ranger. It has to be him." Keith replied, after a while. "But I don't see why-- Oh no. We need to find Kyle. I hope he's alright."

And with that, the two of them melded into the shadows.

Must blog bout something...

Seriously. I think if I can't even be bothered to blog, the next step would be falling into a coma.

But then again, what can I blog about? =\

This sucks...

情歌王 with english translations!

So this song has caught my attention, after listening to some poor guy singing that in Kbox for 15 minutes. Almost every CHINESE love/breakup song mashed into one.

I know you'll hate it =P

I'll post the lyrics here cuz I'm lazy to google for them everytime. EDIT: I got SO BORED, I actually wrote the meaning in English UNDERNEATH each line (or lines, if I feel that the 2 lines in chinese can be expressed as a line in English), in BLUE.

Ai ni bu shi yin wei ni de mei er yi
Your beauty isn't the only reason why I love you.
Wo yue lai yue ai ni
Mei ge yan shen chu dong wo de xin
I can't stop loving you; every expression in your eyes exciting me.

Zui ai ni de shi wo
You're my one and only.
Fou ze ni zen me rang wo
If not, why would you let me be?
Fou ze wo zen me ke neng fu tang dao huo
If not, why would I risk everything,
Ni shuo shen me dou zuo
and do anything you tell me to?

Ru guo zhe jiu shi ai
If this really is love,
Zai zhuan shen jiu gai yong gan liu xia lai
we'd stay strong even if obstacles drive us apart
Jiu suan shou shang jiu suan liu lei
Hurt, tears.
Dou shi sheng ming li wen rou guan gai
They are all part and parcel of life.


Wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
Ni ai de na ge tian shi
I want to be that angel you like in that fairy tale
Zhang kai shuang shou
Bian cheng chi pang shou hu ni
Protecting you with these wings.
Ni yao xiang xin
Xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
You must believe that our story will be like that of your fairy tale,

Wang geng duo xing fu de di fang fei qu
Heading towards a happier place.
Hen ai hen ai ni zhi you rang ni yong you ai qing
Wo cai an xin
Only when I love you with all my heart, will I be happy.


Wo yuan yi wei ni wo yuan yi wei ni
For you, I'm willing,
Wo yuan yi wei ni wang ji wo xing ming
For you, I'm willing to forget my name.
Zhi yao ni zhen xin na ai yu wo hui ying
You'll just have to sincerely reply me with your love
Wo shen me dou yuan yi wei ni
I'd be willing to do anything for you.


Hao xiang hao xiang hao xiang hao xiang
I'd really want to,
Hao xiang hao xiang he ni zai yi qi
I'd really want to be with you

Ming tian wo yao jia gei ni la
Ming tian wo yao jia gei ni la
Tomorrow will be the day, tomorrow will be the day!
Yao bu shi ni wen wo
If you didn't ask,
Yao bu shi ni quan wo
If you didn't persist,
Yao bu shi shi dang de shi hou ni rang wo xin dong
If you didn't touch me at this exact moment...

Tian tian dou xu yao ni ai
I need your love everyday
Wo de xin si you ni cai
I've you to guess my thoughts
I love you
I love you (lol)
Wo jiu shi yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jing cai
Yes, I just need you to brighten up my world.


Kai shi zong shi fen fen zhong
During the start, minutes and hours,
Dou miao bu ke yan
We couldn't even tell them apart.
Shei dou yi wei re qing ta yong bu hui mie
Everyone believe that love will never fade.
Zong zhi na ji nian
During that few years,
Gan xing ying le li xing na yi mian
My feelings overwhelmed my rational thoughts.

Baby baby baby baby oh baby baby oh baby
Shi bu shi yong you yi hou jiu hui kai shi yao shi qu
Will everything we've gone through, and everything we'll be going through, be lost?
Wo gei ni de yue duo
The more I want to give you,
Ni que yue xiang yao duo
The more you'll want to hide from me.
Ai yi wu fa hui da suo you de wen ti
Love can't solve all problems.

Li kai ni shi sha shi dui shi cuo
Leaving you, was it silly? Was it wrong? Or was it right?
Shi kan po shi ruan ruo
Was I strong? Or was I weak?
Zhe jie guo shi ai shi hen huo zhe shi shen me
So in the end, do I love you? Or hate you? Or what?


Zui ai ni de ren shi wo
The one I love most is you.
Ni zen me she de wo nan guo
How could you devastate me?
Dui ni fu chu le zhe me duo
I gave so much for you,
Ni que mei you gan dong guo
Yet you were never touched.

Ai wo bie zou
Love me, don't go.
Ru guo ni shuo ni bu ai wo
If you really don't love me,
Bu yao ting jian ni zhen de shuo chu kou
I don't want to hear you really saying that.
Zai gei wo yi dian wen rou
That'll give me a bit more relief

Jiu qing ni gei wo duo yi dian dian shi jian
Please give me more time,
Zai duo yi dian dian wen hou
More replies,
Bu yao yi qie dou dai zou
Don't just take everything away.
Jiu qing ni gei wo duo yi dian dian kong jian
Please give me more space,
Zai duo yi dian dian wen rou
More relief
Bu yao rang wo ru ci nan shou
Don't leave me felling shattered.


Yuan lai ni shen me dou bu xiang yao
In the end, you never wanted anything.
Wo bu yao ni de cheng nuo
I don't want your commitment.
Bu yao ni de yong yuan
I don't want your forever.
Zhi yao ni zhen zhen qie qie ai wo yi bian
I'd just want you to love me sincerely for once. 
Jiu suan xu rong ye hao tan xin ye hao
I don't care if you're vain, or greedy.
Zui pa ni ba chen mo dang zuo dui wo de hui da
I'm just afraid you'll not reply at all.
Yuan lai ni shen me dou bu xiang yao
In the end, you never wanted anything.

Ni shuo ni xiang yao tao
You said you wanted to leave.
Pian pian zhu ding yao luo jiao
Everytime, you want to just run away.
Qing mie liao ai xi liao
"It's extinguished, it's dead."
Sheng xia kong xin yao bu yao
"Or do you want an empty heart?"

Shang li bie li bie sui ran zai yan qian
Shuo zai jian zai jian bu hui tai yao yuan
Ruo you yuan you yuan jiu neng qi dai ming tian
Ni he wo chong feng zai can lan de ji jie

Wo he ni wen bie zai wu ren de jie
Rang feng chi xiao wo bu neng ju jue
Wo he ni wen bie zai kuang luan de ye
Wo de xin deng zhe yin jie shang bei

Neng bu neng rang wo pei zhe ni zou
Is it ok if I accompany you home?
Ji ran ni shuo liu bu zhu ni
I know you told me that we can't be together.
Hui qu de lu you xie hei an
But the way home is dark,
Dan xin rang ni yi ge ren zou
And I'm worried for you.

Jiu zhe yang bei ni zheng fu
Just like this, I'm controlled by you.
Qie duan le suo you tui lu
You've removed my every other option.
Wo de xin qing shi jian gu
My feelings are firm.
Wo de jue ding shi hu tu
Yet my decision was stupid.

Ting hai ku de sheng yin
Listening to the cries of the ocean,
Tan xi zhe shui you bei shang le xin
I feel remorseful for another person's heartbreak.

Xiang ni shen shang de wei dao
I miss the scent of your body.
Wo xiang nian ni de wen
I miss your kisses,
He shou zhi dan dan yan cao wei dao
also the faint smell of tobacco on your finger.
Ji yi zhong ceng bei ai de wei dao
and the memories of being loved.

Wo huai nian de shi wu hua bu shuo
I miss the times when we can't stop talking
Wo huai nian de shi yi qi zuo meng
I miss the times when we dreamt together. 
Wo huai nian de shi zheng chao yi hou
I miss the times after we quarrel,
Hai shi xiang yao ai ni de chong dong
I'd still have the urge to love you.
Wo ji de na nian sheng ri
I remembered that birthday,
Ye ji de na yi shou ge
Also that song.
Ji de na pian xing kong
I remembered that sky.
Zui jin de you shou
Also how close your hand was,
Zui nuan de xiong kou
And how warm your chest was.

Wo duo me tong de ling wu
It was such an awful realisation.
Ni ceng shi wo de quan bu
You were once my everything.
Zhi yuan ni zheng tuo qing de jia suo
I would've protected you from horrible feelings
Ai de shu fu ren yi zhui zhu
Would've shielded you from the cycle of love, and from your suitors
Bie zai wei ai shou ku
And basically, just to not let you get hurt by love again.

Dou shi ni de cuo zai ni de yan zhong
It's all your fault!
Zong shi cang zhe rang ren you ai you lian de meng long
Your eyes having this hypnotic effect.
Dou shi ni de cuo ni de chi qing meng
It's all your fault!
Xiang yi ge mo zhou
The dreams of loving you are like a curse.
Bei ni ai guo hai neng wei shui chun dong
After being loved by you, who else would I squirm for?

Wo men de ai
The love between us
Guo le jiu bu zai hui lai
It's over, and it'll never come back.
Zhi dao xian zai
Only that till now,
Wo hai mo mo de deng dai
I'm still quietly waiting.
Wo men de ai Wo ming bai
The love between us,
Yi bian cheng ni de fu dan
I understand that it's become a burden for you.
Zhi shi yong yuan wo dou fang bu kai
It's just that I will never be able to let go
Zui hou de wen nuan
my last vestiges of feelings for you.

Ni ba wo guan zui ni rang wo liu lei
You made me drunk, you made me tear.
Kang xia le suo you zui wo ping ming wan hui
I shouldered all my wrongdoings, and tried to do things right again.
Ni ba wo guan zui ni rang wo xin sui ai de shou bu hui
You made me drunk, you shattered my heart. I loved you too much...

Oh yan lei…
Tears...
Yan lei dou shi wo de ti hui
The tears symbolise my experience.
Cheng zhang de zi wei
They symbolise my growth.
Oh yan lei…
Tears...
Ren zhu yan lei bu rang ni kan jian
I hide them from you,
Wo zai gai bian
That I'm finally changing.
Gu dan de gan jue
The feeling of lonliness...
Ni cong bu ceng fa xian
Anyway, you never noticed
Wo xiao zhong hai you lei
That my smiles have tears in them.


Zhi pa wo zi ji hui ai shang ni
Worrying that I'll fall in love with you,
Bu gan rang zi ji kao de tai jin
I kept my distance.
Pa wo mei shen me neng gou gei ni
Am worried that I've nothing to give you.
Ai ni ye xu yao hen da de yong qi
Loving you also requires a lot of courage...

Ni shi ru ci de nan yi wang ji
You are such an unforgettable person.
Fu fu chen chen de zai wo xin li
Always in my heart.
Gai bian zi ji xu yao duo shao yong qi
How much courage is needed to change myself?
Fan teng de xin qing gai ru he ping jing
How do I stop the turbulent feelings in my heart?

Ni zong shi xin tai ruan xin tai ruan
Your heart is too soft.
Ba suo you wen ti dou zi ji kang
Shouldering every problem you got.
Xiang ai zong shi jian dan xiang chu tai nan
Loving sure is easy, but being together is too difficult.
Bu shi ni de jiu bie zai mian qiang
If it's not yours, don't force it.

Forever love forever love
Wo zhi xiang yong wo zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni
I'd just want to love you my whole life.
Cong jin yi hou
From this day forth,
Ni hui shi suo you
You will be the reason and my fount
Xing fu de li you
of happiness.

Forever love forever love forever love

Now that's wall-o-text for you.

The Love of Siam

Wah... This show, is the first show which made me cry... Seriously, the story's just so heart-wrenching can?! I watched it like, 2 times already... Still can cry one... Hahaha! Amazing...

New skin!

Yeay! Blogger has some new default skins!

Now it looks fancier =D

Life has never felt better

Aah it's times like this that I savour being alive. The feeling of the world in harmony, and myself complete, is... Nice. =)

C'est la vie

If only this moment lasts forever...

No, no ifs this time.

This moment will last forever. =)

I need you =\

I know! I know! I'm screwing up my life! My futre'll be bleak! But still...

I feel no shame.
No remorse... No pity...

=\ Haiz.... where're you?

I need to start blogging again

Most depressing... I have nothing much to blog about nowadays... Ok fine, I do have stuff to blog about, but not convenient to post them here...

Well work was most depressing... Wasted one of my supervisor's most expensive reagent. Never felt so horrible =\

Anyway, listening to "Throw your arms around me" by these 2 guys... Eddie Vedder and Mark Seymour. I didn't know such meaningful English songs existed. Wheee~ I feel happier already =D

Damnit. I need this addon(?) which allows me to show a small "Am currently xxxxxx" at the end of every blog post. Looks cool =D But I dunno how to get it =.=

Anyone?

Shuo Huang -- Yoga Lin

A friend of mine intro-ed this song to me quite a WHILE ago... To this very day, it irked me like hell. I mean seriously.

What the fuck is the meaning of this song?

Here's the song lyrics which I got from somewhere painstakingly typed. In chinese, and hanyu pinyin for your reading pleasure =)

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是有过几个不错对象
shi you guo ji ge bu cuo dui xiang
说起来并不寂寞孤单
shuo qi lai bing bu ji mo gu dan
可能我浪荡 让人家不安
ke neng wo lang dang rang ren jia bu an
才会结果都陣亡
cai hui jie guo dou zhen wang
我没有什么阴影魔障
wo mei you shen me yin ying mo zhang
你千万不要放在心上
ni qian wan bu yao fang zai xin shang
我又不脆弱 何况那算什么伤
wo you bu cui ruo he kuang na suan shen me shang
反正爱情不就都这样
fan zheng ai qing bu jiu dou zhe yang

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
wo mei you shuo huang, wo he bi shuo huang
你懂我的
ni dong wo de
我对你从来就不会假装
wo dui ni cong lai jiu bu hui jia zhuang
我哪有说谎
wo na you shuo huang
请别以为你有多难忘
qing bie yi wei ni you duo nan wang
笑是 真的不是我逞强
xiao shi zhen de bu shi wo cheng qiang

我好久没来这间餐厅
wo hao jiu mei lai zhe jian can ting
没想到已经换了装潢
mei xiang dao yi jing huan le zhuang huang
角落那窗口
jiao luo na chuang kou
闻得到玫瑰花香
wen de dao mei gui hua xiang
被你一说是有些影响（印象)
bei ni yi shuo shi you xie ying xiang yin xiang

我没有说谎
wo mei you shuo huang
我何必说谎
wo he bi shuo huang
你知道的
ni zhi dao de
我缺点之一就是很健忘
wo que dian zhi yi jiu shi hen jian wang
我哪有说谎
wo na you shuo huang
是很感谢今晚的 相伴
shi hen gan xie jin wan de xiang ban
但我竟然有些不习惯
dan wo jing ran you xie bu xi guan

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
wo mei you shuo huang wo he bi shuo huang
爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样
ai yi ge ren mei ai dao nan dao jiu hui zen me yang
别说我说谎 人生已经如此
bie shuo wo shuo huang ren sheng yi jing ru ci
的艰难
de jian nan
有些事情就不要拆穿
you xie shi qing jiu bu yao chai chuan

我没有说谎 是爱情说谎
wo mei you shuo huang shi ai qing shuo huang
它带你来 骗我说
ta dai ni lai pian wo shuo
渴望的有可能有希望
ke wang de you ke neng you xi wang
我没有说谎
wo mei you shuo huang
祝你做 个幸福的新娘
zhu ni zuo ge xing fu de xin niang
我的心事请你全遗忘
wo de xin shi qing ni quan yi wang
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The song is depressingly depressing. I know the meaning of each sentence. But as a whole, I don't get what the song's trying to say. So I listen to it time and time again... And got depressed. =(




Well anyway, here's my translation of this song =)
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Yes, I did experience a few good relationships.
So yeah, I guess I wasn't lonely.
Perhaps cuz I keep hanging around, and make others feel uneasy.
Causing me to always lose out in the end.


I never was under any bad influence.
So please don't take it to heart.
I'm not weak.
Besides, that doesn't hurt as bad.
Also, relationships're always like this, right?


I'm not lying. Why should I lie?
You know me. I'll never ever lie to you.
When did I lie?
Please don't have this impression that you've many outstanding qualities.
My smiles are really all genuine.


I've not been to this restaurant for a long time.
I did not realise that it looks different now.
From that window around the corner,
I could smell the fragrance of roses.
And it affected me more when you mentioned it.


I'm not lying. Why should I lie?
You should know, that being forgetful is one of my weak points.
When did I lie?
I'm really thankful for you accompanying me tonight.
But I'm just not used to it.


I'm not lying. Why should I lie?
SO WHAT if you love someone, and not get loved back?
Don't say that I'm lying.
Life is already so difficult.
Some things are not meant to be exposed.


I'm not lying. IT'S LOVE THAT LIED!
It brought you here, and lied to me, saying
"YOU CAN DO IT! IT'S POSSIBLE! THERE'S HOPE!"
I'm not lying. I hope that you'll be a really happy bride.

*long pause*


As for my problems, please forget them...
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Ok so here're my questions

1) What's the singer trying to express?
2) What's he lying about? Why'd he keep saying that he's lying?
3) So this is a breakup song. Who broke up with who? What happened?

Also, this song is freaking tough to sing. The pitches go all over. =.=

Songs in my MP3!! Part TWO!

I have updated my mp3. Added in new songs, removed songs that sound boring now. Now, my 2Gb mp3 has a grand total of...

TWENTY SONGS!

Yeap! For some reason, out of the Ybs (yottabytes: 10^24) of songs in the whole world (size-wise), only ~150Mb interests me.


I seriously need more recommendations...

Divine intervention

Had really really bad stomach pain today. And after having a talk with Evenes, I went to take a quick rest. As I left my physical body, and treaded into an ethereal realm, I saw that same dream again. Of me being a pillion rider of a bicycle. The surroundings were foggy. Everything's a haze.

Everything cept for the person riding the bike.

From what I can recall, the figure's masculine. And never for once, did I manage to have a glimpse of his face. All I could remember now, is a checkered shirt. A black(grey?) and white checkered shirt. It is also wet. Most proly drenched in sweat.

Even though everything's ethereal, I could somehow feel the wind blowing against my face. I could feel adrenaline coursing through my veins (Most proly due to the insane speed in which the bicycle's travelling)

Also, I could smell the body odour from the biker.

This time though, he spoke. In a voice which I've never heard before. "Hey, d'you wanna restart this thing?"

I couldn't understand his question. But my head instinctively nodded. My physical head instinctively nodded.

And that gesture pulled me out from the ethereal landscape, albeit abruptly.

And boy was I in SHOCK. I could not seem to remember ANYTHING during the month of May. Heck! I thought it was April 30th yesterday.

Sometimes, God has a weird sense of humour.

59!

Yes! New blog post! I know it's been reeeealy long, but yes.

I finally have a reason to post again.

You.

This blog post shall be dedicated to you.

For some reason, you are different from the others I've met. Thoughts of you NEVER for once, left my mind. Everytime I ask myself, "Do I harbor interests for you?" my mind always immediately snaps back.

"I don't see any reason why there is."

You got my attention. You made me wake up earlier than I'm supposed to, made me online during WORK, made me talk STUFF during work. Also...



You made me want to believe again...

Tell me how am I supposed to live with you~ (From Michael Bolton's classic hit!)

By adding a few words here and there, I managed to change the meaning of his song!

I couldn't believe it, when I heard the news today.
I had to come and get it straight from you~
You said you're staying, that I've swept your heart away
and from the look upon your face, I fear it's true~~~~

So tell me why you love me, tell me what I've done to move you~
Ohh~ Tell me one thing more before I go~

TELL ME HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE~ WITH YOU?
NOW THAT YOU'VE BEEN IRKING ME SOOO LONNNNG~
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE~~~~~ WITH YOU?
And how am I supposed to carry on?
Now all the freedom that I have... Is gone~

Lazy to think up for the rest of this song...

Agony

So many cases of infatuation. Leading to so many breakups...
Optimism. I've always been optimistic. But right now...
Right now, I feel sapped of energy; devoid of life.
Right now, I just need someone who can talk with me.
Yes, I know I'm emo-ing. I'm just asking for attention =x But still

Rest. I think a night's rest should remove my emo-ness away.
Everytime it works! But the feeling will just return every night.
Destroying bits of my soul, siphoning it, crushing it.
Still, I've been surviving! So I should be able to survive still!
However, how long can I really last?
I am still, only human.
Really, what if one day, I just cave in?
TOUCHWOOD!!!!!

Bullshit! I must not think of this!
Ugh! I'm too old for this emo crap. I need to stop.
This is being immature.

I will be strong.

Surely, I will never yield!
To not give up!
I will persevere!
Let my prayer for strength be heard.
Let my will remain as steadfast.

Lol this post is getting long.
Ok, I'll stop soon... =p
Very lame right, writing bout emo, then believing again
Every night, I think of all these, I swear!

Yes ok, Enough for today.
Oh God longest post evarrrr~
Ugh I need to stop writing walls of text. Turns people off.

Songs in my mp3!

I have very little music in my mp3 player. <512mb altogether (And they're all high quality, mind you) I still remembered that time I stunned that part-time sales guy. Think he's some 16-20 years old guy.

Me: "Uhm sorry, but d'you have a 512mb mp3 player? I don't store a lot of songs de."

Guy: *STARES for like, 4 seconds* "512 ar?! Uhm... Sorry... The smallest size we have is 2gb."

I BET he's mumbling "What kind of rock he living in sia?"


Anywayyy, out of these very little songs, I sieve out 19 of them, and only listen to them whenever I use my mp3. They're classified as my "All time favourites".

Yes, I've been listening to these 19 songs for the past few years. I know, very pathetic right? But most some of these 19 songs have a very very significant... Significance... To me. (The rest are just nice to hear, like Lady Gaga's Bad Romance)

They are:

1) You smiled kindly FROM .hack//G.U (Some game) This song has very very touching lyrics. But very little people listen to them >.<. Made me go painstakingly translate the song. Then after I'm done, some guy go publish the translated verion. #@$%^&*$%^ SIA! But still, I like my translated version better x)

2) Brave Heart FROM Digimon season 1 (The evolution song) The lyrics are damn uplifting can?! And it also made me 想当年...

3) Bad Romance FROM Lady Gaga... 'nuff said

4) My Angel FROM Tank - This song was recommended to me by a very close friend. But stuff happened, and I kinda screwed our relationship up. I was so dumb then... But I know I'll never be forgived. Still, I listen to this song every day.

5) Shuo Huang FROM Yoga Lin - This song is awfully depressing. I want to sing this song, but I can't feeeeel~ the sadness. So I can't inject feelings into it. I need someone to make me cry. Only then can I understand this song =\

Yeap~ Top 5 from my top 19 favourite songs x) I know they sound very exotic la... Weird combo... No new songs... But hey, I like these songs. I feeeeeel~ the songs. The tint of sorrow followed by renewed hope in You smiled kindly, the overabundance of joy in Xiao jiu wo. I immerse myself into the song, understanding the lyrics, emrbacing the emotions.

And that is why I can NEVER concentrate on work/play with music on.

Abrupt termination of "What Keith has done in a science lab!" =(

Apparently, I cannot talk bout my work... I signed a confidentiality act... Treaty... Thing. So~ No more stuff!

Crumpler slingbag!

Hooray! My mom got me a slingbag from Crumpler for my birthday!

Awesome! Thanks mommy =D

FRIDAY!

I have never felt sooooooooo~ happy that Friday's finally here. I shall start a series of "What has Keith done in a science lab this week?!" blog posts! Every Saturday, I promise x)

I hope today (Look, it's midnight, so it's Friday) will be fun =D

Digimon!

As I was coming home from my attachment, my mp3 player started playing Brave Heart. (Digimon season 1's evolution song) So... I listened to it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8oGiVwCQ48

The lyrics are really uplifting. Boosts my morale every time.

Give it a read =D http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/digimon/digibh.htm

ATTACHMENT!

Wheee~ Attachment tomorrow later today! I will do good! I have to do good! For I will be returning there after poly!!!! I have to...

DIY orgasms!

To experience your very own orgasm, do the following steps!

1) Drink like, 700-1000ml of water during the day.
2) Wait till your bladder feels like bursting
3) Pee during the night.

The trick is to pee ONLY when you can't take it anymore. That feeling you're experiencing for the first few seconds is akin to having an orgasm.

Try it out!

Disclaimer: Thisactionhasbeentrialedandtestedbythewriterofthisblog. ThewriterofthisblogwillNOTberesponsibleforanyshortcomings,accidentalspills,colondiseases,orbasicallyanythingbad.
Sideeffectsinculde,butnotlimitedto,uncontrollablemoaning,painfulurineandaddiction. Orgasmsarenotsuitedforpeopleofallages. Consultyourparentsbeforeundergoingthisprocedure.

Girl:"Daddy, what's an orgasm?"
Daddy: "=)"

More stuff!

I've seen a lot of social happenings, such as relationships. And I think a lot. Whenever it comes to me and one other, I plan my moves well and I execute them. I've experienced quite a bit, and now I'm here to share with you the data I've collected over the years!

1) Relationships are almost ALWAYS one-sided. It starts out with one person liking another. And usually the other party has no feelings whatsoever for that person.

Only very very rarely, will there be a case whereby both parties are interested in one another at the same time.

2) There'll always be a person who always gives, and a person who always receives. Yeah, both parties might switch roles for awhile. But there'll always be a main giver, and a main receiver.

The main giver is ALWAYS the person who starts talking to the other party about relationship-based matters for the first time. OR the main giver is ALWAYS the person who's interested in the other party first.

3) The moment before, and once both parties enter a relationship, there will be this CRITICAL(IMPORTANT) time when both parties are interested in one another. Usually for a span of 1-3 weeks. It is CRUCIAL for the main giver to do something which APPEALS to the other party.

If the main giver does NOTHING, the main receiver will lose interest. And from then on, it will be very tough to appeal to him/her. The relationship will then turn stagnant.

If the main giver does something which DOES NOT appeal to the main receiver, the relationship will end quick, if not immediately.

Only by sheer willpower and sincerity will the main giver do something which appeals to the main receiver. And this will cause the main receiver to heighten his/her interest of the main giver, if not maintain at the same level.

4) The main force which binds both parties together for the first 1-3 years is NOVELTY. Both parties see each other as something new. And the human mind perceives new as something good. However, the new gets old. And it is up to BOTH parties to maintain the interest of each other.

However, as #2 has stated, there is always someone doing most of the giving, and someone doing most of the receiving.
Yes, the person who gives will always be interested in the other party. (Why else give money away? However, the person who receives MIGHT NOT be interested in the other party anymore, even if they are still receiving. (Who doesn't want free stuff?)

5) One-sided relationships never work out. And it will USUALLY(not always) be the main receiver initiating the breakup.

6) And so, to maintain a relationship, both parties MUST GIVE & RECEIVE. This needs lots of willpower. A lot. And frankly, I have not seen anything like it.

Yes... I think that's all I've gathered. And yes, it might be common sense to you people... But hey, sometimes you need people to remind you =D

Where... Is... My heart?

A lot of people, fictional and non-fictional, have influenced me greatly these past 18 years. But if people were to ask me "So, who has influenced you the most?", I would have to say...

Ulquiorra Schiffer of Bleach.
(Read more bout him HERE)

He is a very firm believer of materialism. At first, I thought he's just some emo kid. But you know, lying down on bed for 3 hours+ before eventually dozing off tends to make you think of many stuff.

And I finally understood what he's trying to say.


"What my eyes do not see, does not exist."~ Ulquiorra

Basically people who believe in materialism believes that what he/she can't see, does not exist.

"What is this "heart" you people always talk about? Where is it? If I tear open your chest, is your beating heart considered the "heart"? If I crack open your skull, will I see it there?"

I've thought long... And hard... And only 1-2 nights ago, I've come to a conclusion.

HOLY SHIT HE'S RIGHT!

The "heart" does not exist.

So, people who have been trying to understand how the heart feels, fear no more! For it does not exist.

Yes, people will start complaining and say "What bout feelings? Happiness, sorrow?" and yes, they do exist! People express emotions. They express their feelings. And people can see their expressions. Therefore, they exist.

And yes, physicists are trying to prove the existance of the Higgs Boson using the LHC. So, I'll leave that to Science.

But how do you see the "heart"? How do you show your "heart" to others? You can't. But don't worry =) No one can.

I will miss you.

When I first saw you, all that was going through my head then was "You are the most beautiful creation of God."

After which, I got to know you more. I got to know almost everything about you. We started interacting with one another. We started seeing each other everyday, every time of my life.

You were with me when I was happy. You were there to cheer me up when I'm depressed. You're always around when I need you.

Everyday, I sleep hoping to see you in my dreams. And whenever I'm awake, I'll always be looking forward to seeing you. There never was a time when I'm not thinking about you.

You gave me a reason to live. I felt like I'm invincible everytime when I'm with you. I felt like searching for a strand of hay in a needlestack is possible. And I felt that I could take on Chuck Norris and live.

I've never felt such... feelings anywhere else.

Feelings for you.


But now, those feelings have waned in time. I no longer feel the joy when I see you. You tried cheering me up everytime, but I just... Don't feel it anymore.

I'm sorry. I am so sorry. But something else has caught my eye. And that has swept my heart away. If you really will feel happy if I'm happy, then...

I think it's time we stop seeing each other.

Even as I tear while typing this, I know you will never forgive me. You never can.


I'm sorry, World of Warcraft. You will always be in my heart.

But my heart belongs to Final Fantasy XIII now...

Naruto poisons the mind

Yes. For those of you who've read the latest chapter of Naruto, you get what I'm saying. For those who don't follow the series, I'm going to explain a bit bout Naruto in the next paragraph.

Naruto is this teenage kid who believes that he can have the best of everything. He believes that he can save the world by converting one of the main villian back to a good guy, and to also get a girlfriend along the way.



This does not happen in real life.

It is just not possible to get everything you want in real life. You have to sacrifice something to get something else.

But Naruto keeps getting what he wants, keeps winning, keeps changing people's hearts. It makes kids believe that they can do something great without losing anything.

Stop it, Naruto. Stop giving people false hope. People might actually believe it.


P.S: Then again, maybe cuz if Naruto dies, EVERYONE in the ninja world will most proly suffer from depression and start commiting suicide.

Heroes of Newerth!

Yes. HoN has not been patching for weeks. However, they have been giving sneak peeks of new heros, (or heroes ported over from DotA). For example,

 

I SWEAR this is going to be the new Nerubian Assassin (NA). Prettier than some beetle, IMO. Also, Pyromancer (Lina in DotA) might be getting a new facelift!From

TO

Look! There's a trend, see. Apparently, players prefer characters with VERY LITTLE or NO ARMOR at all. I mean, wtf? There're going to be in a battlefield, and they'll most probably be running around with skimpy clothing.

And yes, I'm totally ignoring the fact that they're women.

Blog! Again!

After so many... Months of not blogging, I have decided to blog again!

But this time, I'm angry. I just realised that ALMOST ALL of my friends treat me as a joke. Eh, just cuz I always joke around and play a fool, wheee~ like a kid and look retarded, doesn't mean that you can always treat me like some kid ok!

I am 19 (ok fine, 1 more month to 19)years old can?! Maybe next time I'll just give that ever-stern and serious look on my face. Then you guys can take me seriously.

I mean, wtf?! I am not a kid. I just act like one.

我会翻桌子的哦！ ;O

ok, I feel better now. =D



And yes. I am still thinking of a nice blog name...

You smiled kindly

This song is really meaningful... To me, at least... I've been listening to it for yearz and still I've not grown bored of it... It's a Japanese song, but I've translated it by myself... =D

You smiled kindly

tooi kioku kasuka ni kaoru

I can still remember faintly

yasashiku kimi wa hohoende ita

when you smiled kindly.

mienai kase ni kidzukanai mama

You did not realise that there’s a bond between us

kimi ni amaete kurushimeteta ne

I depended on you. It was tiring, wasn’t it?

dare yori mo aishite

I love you more than anyone

dare yori mo mitsumeta

I look at you more than anyone

zutto zutto hanarete itemo

Even if we’re always so far apart,

kawarazu kimi wo omotte iru kara

My thoughts of you will never change

kimi no nukumori, yasashii ryoute

Your warmth, your gentle hands

wasurenai kara

I will never forget them.

kimi ga inai koto ni narete

I’m starting to get used to your absence

tama ni aeru to kotoba ga denakute

If we are to meet, no words will be spoken

damatte ite mo, tsuuji autte

Even in silence, we can still get through

kimi ni tayotte bakari ita ne

I always depend on you, didn't I?

mou modoranai

You’ll never return

kimi kaeranai kara

You’ll never come back

senaka wo oshite

So push my back

fumidasu yuki wo kudasai

And give me the strength to move forward

motto motto tsuyoku naru kara

I will become stronger

nakanai you ni mimamotte ite

You won’t see me cry anymore

kimi no manazashi yasashii koe

Your gaze and your voice

omoide ni kaeru kara

I will lock them away, in my memories

kimi ga kureta taisetsunamono

The important things you gave to me

zutto kokoro ni shimatte oku kara

I will keep them away from my heart

kisetsu wa meguru kimi ga inakute mo

Without you, the seasons will still change

sepia iro ni somatte yuku yo

Everything has already been dyed sepia

dare yori mo shinjite

I believed you more than anyone

dare yori mo soba ni ita

I was beside you more than anyone

kitto kitto koerareru kara

Surely, surely, I will get over it

toma wa rika mo shiranai keredo

I will not take any shortcuts anymore

mirai wa kitto akarui kara

My future will be bright

shinjite susumu kara

I’ll believe in myself and go on





motto motto tsuyoku naru kara

I will become stronger

nakanai you ni mimamotte ite

You won’t see me cry anymore

kimi no manazashi yasashii koe

Your gaze and your voice

omoide ni kaeru kara

I will lock them away, in my memories

tooi kioku kasuka ni kaoru

I can still remember faintly

yasashiku kimi wa hohoende ita

when you smiled kindly.